I have no idea why I keep referencing The Hunger Games. Maybe because I’m really hungry. I always am. But I digress… This post is not about my hunger, nor is it about The Hunger Games, so if you’re here to read about Katniss Everdeen, the odds are not in your favor.
Now, that we’ve made it clear that this is not about The Hunger Games, you may be wondering what this post is about. Well, I’ll tell ya!
This post is about how I was dead set on self-publishing and making my book, The Sacred Scarred, available for pre-order tomorrow, but a still, small Voice – the One we Christians have to know how to listen to – told me to Wait.
I was not happy about it, to be honest. It didn’t make sense to me to wait. At least at first. But my relationship with God lately has been marked by Him telling me to do something I don’t want to do, and then I throw a mighty tantrum about it, and then I do it anyway. And after I do it, I realize that tantrums are very much exhausting, and wonder of wonders, He does know what He’s talking about. I’m the fool here, and I really should know by now not to put up a fight. Because I’ll lose. He’s so good at everything.
So anyway, The Sacred Scarred won’t be available for pre-order tomorrow. Or next week. Or on December 25. Or maybe it will be. I don’t know. All I know is that I’m waiting. I’m waiting for Him to tell me what to do.
So if you’re one of the ten or fifty or one million (I wish) people, who are waiting for this book to come out, let’s wait together. (Sign up to my mailing list while you’re at it. Shameless plug.)
Now, why are the odds not in my favor?
Because it isn’t.
You may be wondering (or not) why the header of this post is the way it is. Let me explain, because I wouldn’t be writing this post if I didn’t have a valid explanation.
You see, last night, I realized why God was asking me to wait. (I told you He knew what He was doing.) I began to research self-publishing, and what it takes to be a successful self-published author. The statistics blew my mind.
Do you know the average amount most self-published authors earn? $100.
“For a month?” you ask. That’s not too bad, right? But no.
“For a year?” Nope.
“For like… ever?” Yep.
Years of writing poured into one book, and most indie authors barely sell 100 books for the entire lifetime of that book.
There is a galaxy of fiction books out there. My book belongs to the Christian Fiction solar system. Let’s narrow it down to a planet: My genre is Women’s Fiction with romantic and fairy tale elements. One planet may be just a tiny blip in the humongous galaxy of fiction, but IT’S STILL A PLANET. Swarming with millions of books from innumerable authors from all corners of that obscure planet.
What’s my point? The odds are not in my favor.
I don’t have a platform big enough to support a successful book launch. If I release this book now – as a self-published author – chances are great that it’s going to fade into some lost, obscure corner of Planet Christian-Women’s-Fiction-With-Romantic-And-Fairy-Tale-Elements. And then what?
The thing is…
I got swept away by the hype.
I posted the book covers on my Facebook Page, and you – my friends – responded so positively, but even just taking my Facebook friends and blog followers into consideration, I’m not even sure I can sell 100 copies upon launching.
Whether I go for self-publishing or if a door opens for traditional publishing, the bottom line is that I have to wait.
Wisdom calls for it.
This book isn’t ready. There’s no platform that I can launch it to. If I launch it now, I’ll probably launch it to the wrong planet/solar system/galaxy and then what? It’ll just float aimlessly into Amazon space like so many books out there.
That’s why He was asking me to wait.
Now, I have this task of building a platform, which I have no clue how to do, because what do I know about marketing and (self-)promotion? I read this article online about what an author did to get his book into Amazon’s bestseller list, and IT’S INSANE. And expensive.
I know who I am, and what I’m capable of. I can’t do what he did. It’s not me. It’s not how I’m wired or designed.
To be honest, right now, I don’t know how to go about this. I don’t know how to grow my platform or build an online following strong enough to support a book launching. Right now, I have 77 people on my mailing list, and most of those people are people I know – a lot of them I just moved from a personal mailing list to my author mailing list.
So here I am. Realizing that writing a book isn’t enough to get people to want to read it.
The odds really aren’t in my favor.
But that’s okay, because I have Him. I have His favor. And I know. I KNOW… He is greater than those odds.
“One person with God is always in the majority,” Graham Cooke always says.
I believe that. I see now what I’m up against and why I have to wait, but the great thing about obeying Him is that I know without a shadow of a doubt that things will eventually work out in my favor. Romans 8:28 says so.
So yeah. As I said, I have to wait.
I sincerely hope that you wait with me, and that when His perfect timing comes, you’ll be part of the platform that I can launch this rocket ship, er, book into.
His timing is perfect, and He will not delay. I think that’s awesome, don’t you?